"I'm really glad you came here when you needed help. You always can."

"Thank you for sharing that with me."

"It's an honour to be trusted this way."

"I'm so glad you're in the world."

"It's neat the way your mind works."

"You always do such interesting things."

"Thank you for making this time with me."

"I enjoy the time we spend together so much."

"You ( Read more... )

My mind is coming back.

It's time again.

The Love Song of the Square Root of Minus One (i)

I am the wind and the wind is invisible, all the leaves tremble but I am invisible, blackbird over the dark field but I am invisible, what fills the balloon and what it moves through, knot without rope, bloom without flower, galloping without the horse, the ( Read more... )

My brain isn't patterning right, right now. Either it's not intaking the right amount of information or it's not drawing conclusions properly. Spatial things, like Tucker leaving the tap on for a minute while cooking or a bike behind the stairs or the (normal) placement of a coffee table -- neither of which are ultra unusual-- startle me and I ( Read more... )

Yesterday was another appointment with the trauma therapist provided through work. The previous time I'd spoken with her it was pretty useful but this time was, if I'm honest, a bit of a shit-show.

I used the term partner. She talked about my "husband".

She lectured extensively about how women "like us" think about many eventualities at once, whereas ( Read more... )

Today I got five new first fruits from the tomato trial: those green cherry tomatoes with seed saved from the grocery store, cole from annapolis seeds, the silvery fir tree from annapolis, sweet apertif from Casey's, the wild cherry thing I got from Corrie which is maybe from salt spring seeds, and a Brad which had ripened still in a transplant pot ( Read more... )

The way through is always the same

Accept myself where I cannot change
Find joy in myself where I cannot change
Experience what I cannot change, not as a roadblock, but as the inevitability of bedrock which catapults a stream into a waterfall or bends a river into a fertile oxbow
In other words: leap into the sunlight. Or feed reaching roots. Grow.
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My old boss somewhat insistently invited me over to his place tomorrow morning along with another friend/ex-coworker. I've been over there once since winter, it was lovely, and I sorta ghosted him after that with a "not doing great" message.

Curious whether this is:

A social call
An intervention
Or a job offer

Especially based on the other person who ( Read more... )

This process of coming back to myself continues little by little. Some of it is still coming back slowly from school, from the years without friends or gardens. Some of it is coming back from being very busy at work previously. Some of it is coming back from the startup or transition mode of relationships where more energy gets directed into ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the first field day I've led in awhile at work. I had one of the summer students with me.It got some stuff done but wasn't super productive; we're learning to estimate lengths and diameters from 7.5cm to 50m or so in various configurations which requires lots of guessing then measuring. It's easy enough to just to measure first, but ( Read more... )

This was supposed to be the last day of the high-level heat. Most places in the province beat their previous all-time heat records, most on two consecutive days; in some cases the new record was over 10C higher than the previous all-time record. Lytton broke both the Canadian all-time high temperature record and was also hotter than Las Vegas has ( Read more... )